Game 047 [Written] - That Which Doesn't Kill Me, Though it Sure is Trying

[neverplaysfair]

[ The camera is covered, but Joshua is making no real effort to disguise his handwriting. He's too upset for that. ]

What should you do if you're so homesick you honestly, truly cannot stand it?

[ A few minutes later, the following is added. ]

[ Locked to Haruhi - 100% ]

The friendship club might have to wait a bit longer.

Comments

[Written]

[dun-measure-up.livejournal.com]

Hate to say it, Sugar, but something simple is all I've ever been able to figure out for myself.

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[so_shik]

Just...let me know when, I guess.

[Written]

[neverplaysfair]

What do you intend to do if one day you yourself need help?

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[neverplaysfair]

Whenever.

[Written]

[neverplaysfair]

How long have you been here?

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[so_shik]

When you can support yourself again. How about that?

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[neverplaysfair]

[ The response is small. ]

I don't know if I'll get to that point on my own.

[Written]

[alreadyknowsyou.livejournal.com]

I needed help quite recently and a number of people offered to help me. There are a number of kind people here like that.

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[so_shik]

...I'll come over later, okay?

[Written]

[dun-measure-up.livejournal.com]

A few days.

But I haven't been home in about ten years.

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[neverplaysfair]

When's later?

[Written]

[neverplaysfair]

Weren't you then causing a problem for them?

[Written]

[neverplaysfair]

Why not?

[Written]

[dun-measure-up.livejournal.com]

Ain't exactly been welcome back there.

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[so_shik]

Later today, later tomorrow?

[Written]

[imxperfectlife.livejournal.com]

[Written]

[neverplaysfair]

I've seen many driven to suicide over feelings of loss. As long as I haven't reached that point, I know there is still worse.

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[neverplaysfair]

Alright.

[ He'll be waiting. ]

[Written]

[neverplaysfair]

And you still consider it your home?

[Written]

[imxperfectlife.livejournal.com]

[Written]

[dun-measure-up.livejournal.com]

Spent two thirds of my life calling it home, an ain't never been anywhere else long enough to change that.

[Written]

[neverplaysfair]

Suicide here is as pointless as anything else. Though it is not without penalty.

Of course it will get worse. But slower is always preferable to faster.

[Written]

[neverplaysfair]

That sounds like reason enough to change if you can.

[Written]

[dun-measure-up.livejournal.com]

Maybe. But just because folk round there ain't the kindest doesn't mean I should have to change. Took it as a challenge...ain't done so well on that, to be honest.

Still, don't feel like giving nem the satisfaction of just giving up alltogether.

What about you? Ever been away from home before his place?

[Written]

[neverplaysfair]

Then you only suffer as long as you hold onto your stubbornness.

Before coming here, it had been a very long time since I'd last left the place I now call home.